I've been quite open on here about how uncomfortable I am in my body. Yesterday, my dietitian sent me a book of writing prompts for those suffering from eating disorders. One prompt was: My Body Remembers:. That made me think a lot. When I'm stable it's easier to say that I understand why my body... Continue Reading →
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The Lows
Little lows, and they're impact on life
It’s The Little Things
I took a shower yesterday. I washed my head and scalp, I put conditioner in my hair, and lost hope for a moment. It was a struggle to get in the shower in the first place, but I needed it. It had been too long in between showers to continue on any longer. So I... Continue Reading →
If You’re Manic and You Know It
So much for my good and happy mood. Let me introduce you to "Hypomanic Me." The good thing, is that it's only hypomania instead of my full blown mania. I'm not too impulsive and don't feel euphoric. Consequences are still a thing. I'm sleeping very little, but I have energy, lots and lots of energy.... Continue Reading →
What happened?!?!?!?!
I guess, in a nutshell, life happened. It's cliche, but true. Here are some quick updates: We still have not closed on our house due to the siblings of the seller placing a lien on the title. We've gone through multiple closing dates now, but will hopefully close in January. The girls ended up going... Continue Reading →
Consistency
Welp, so much for my twice weekly posts. It's been over two months since my last post. Granted, a ton of things have happened. All of which I will try and update you on in the next post. This post is to acknowledge my inconsistent behavior. Consistency is something I have always longed for. But... Continue Reading →
Mrs. Mommy
Homeschooling. I don't even know for sure if that's one word or two, but I'm doing it. And if that doesn't describe our situation I don't know what does. That may be a little extreme, considering I did study English and Psychology in college, but it's a good representation of the fact that I know... Continue Reading →
A Crushing Blow
Got some news this week that was hard to swallow. I got denied for my disability again. Only this time the judge was nice enough to add, "Applicant alleges to have an eating disorder (yet she is obese)." I'm sorry that I don't fit society's vision of anorexia. And quite frankly, f*** that judge. My... Continue Reading →
Excoriation Disorder
To start off, here is a definition of Excoriation disorder by Mental Health America: Excoriation disorder (also referred to as chronic skin-picking or dermatillomania) is a mental illness related to obsessive-compulsive disorder. It is characterized by repeated picking at one’s own skin which results in skin lesions and causes significant disruption in one’s life. Individuals... Continue Reading →
A Long Pause
It's been a long time since I wrote a post. I wish I could blame one particular event to it, but in all honesty it's been half writer's block and half my typical self. The problem I have when it comes to writing, or doing anything really, is that I lose time. I don't realize... Continue Reading →