A Long Pause

It’s been a long time since I wrote a post. I wish I could blame one particular event to it, but in all honesty it’s been half writer’s block and half my typical self. The problem I have when it comes to writing, or doing anything really, is that I lose time. I don’t realize how much time passes between the things I do, or more importantly don’t do. That was my problem in college, I wouldn’t be able to go to classes and I’d lose track of just how many classes I missed. There were times when I’d realize I hadn’t been to a class in weeks. Which is hard to explain to your professor. Some of it would be lows, a lot of them manics.

My problem now is that I’m incredibly busy. I’ve been preparing to homeschool my girls, and am still unsure on how I’m going to do it. The girls have been having some behavior and sleep issues, and I know it’s because we’re not getting them out enough. But it’s hard. They’re at that age where they’re super active, but aren’t going to be careful about germs or viruses. So we’re limited in ways we can get them out of the house. We try and go for drives, but that means they’re just strapped down in a car seat the whole time. So for “recess”, we’ll be going on bike rides and take some trips to the tennis courts. Hopefully that’ll do us all a world of good.

I’ve also been super stressed lately. We’ve been contemplating buying a home since my mastectomy is now scheduled for next summer, which has us obsessing over finances and credit scores. I had my disability hearing this week, which I think has caused me more stress post-hearing than before the hearing. I’ve also started making candles, which has required a surprising amount of research and supplies. Because you know, I don’t have enough going on. With so much going on, and so much stress, it’s incredibly difficult for me to focus long enough to read or write. So my blog has unfortunately taken a back burner to life.

But as I’ve said in a previous post, I can always start again. I had a timeline and goal for this blog, and I can always pick that up where I dropped it off. That’s the beauty of it being my own, I can take the necessary breaks and then begin again. This blog is to help with my mental health and to possibly help anyone else going through some of the issues I address on here. So I can take it as seriously as I want/need to. Which would probably be way better for my mental health anyways.