It's been a long time since I wrote a post. I wish I could blame one particular event to it, but in all honesty it's been half writer's block and half my typical self. The problem I have when it comes to writing, or doing anything really, is that I lose time. I don't realize... Continue Reading →
Complete and total exhaustion have taken hold and won't let go.
This started off being about my moods lately, but I'm so scattered mentally that it really doesn't work as any one topic. So here is an insight as to how my mind works. Welp, I'm officially swinging for the sky. My mood has been all over the place for the past week. Mopey, angry, hyper,... Continue Reading →
Last year is a very hard subject for me to talk about. I was at my lowest point at this time last year. Memorial day weekend of '19, and I tried to kill myself. After having been manic off and on for almost a year, I crashed. The worst low I've ever had. I had... Continue Reading →
As a mother of three patience is something that is crucial in my day-to-day life. We suspect my first daughter may have ADHD, our middle daughter has diagnosed Autism disorder, and the youngest is entering her second round of testing for Autism after scoring too high on the Autism screening. In other words, it's a... Continue Reading →
Every once in a while people will experience absent-mindedness. It sucks, but it happens. Maybe you just have a moment of it from time to time, maybe you have a whole day of it. It usually comes in three forms: forgetting stuff, focusing on one thing and becoming oblivious to those around you, or not... Continue Reading →
I've been surprisingly efficient lately, which of course begs the question: Am I Manic? My manics are terrifying. I talk nonstop at an incredible high speed. I only think of myself, I am incapable of empathy. Yes, kinda like a sociopath. I can't sit still, I feel none of my usual pain that keeps me... Continue Reading →
The amount of medicine I'm on, in my opinion, is ridiculous. I also know individuals who take much more, so I am lucky in many ways. But that doesn't help me when I empty the medicine box section into my hand. Seven pills in the morning and seven pills at night have been my norm.... Continue Reading →
Many of the medications I'm on have that handy-dandy side effect of drowsiness. I recently got prescribed a new medication for my nerve pain, and it makes me ridiculously sleepy. I lay down, and try to sleep but I can't. I can't fall asleep. Last night I took a melatonin, fell asleep, and still ended... Continue Reading →
One of the fun things about not knowing what your mood will be an hour into the future (I say with great sarcasm) is that you really don't know who you'll be. I can sit down on the couch with a coffee and tell myself that I'll do dishes when I'm done drinking. But maybe... Continue Reading →
Diary of a Bipolar Mommy 