One Down

I did it! One surgery down and two more to go. I'm a bit shocked at this hysterectomy though. To avoid TMI, let's just say I wasn't expecting to have four good-sized incisions on my stomach. And they're glued shut, no stitches, which only makes me more nervous about messing them up. I'm also sore,... Continue Reading →

A Definite Low

Well the question as to where my moods were heading has been answered. I am low. And I hate it. I have no energy, everything hurts, but the worst part is that I can't enjoy my last couple days before surgery. I'm having a surgery tomorrow and another one four weeks later. I'm going to... Continue Reading →

Summer Fun *sarcasm

I've had surgery for a hysterectomy planned for this summer for a few months, and the big day is only three days away. I'm a nervous wreck. To add to the stress, my other surgeon wants to do a mastectomy at the end of June. So, in a month. For those of you who are... Continue Reading →

Patience and Parenting

As a mother of three patience is something that is crucial in my day-to-day life. We suspect my first daughter may have ADHD, our middle daughter has diagnosed Autism disorder, and the youngest is entering her second round of testing for Autism after scoring too high on the Autism screening. In other words, it's a... Continue Reading →

When Progress is Suspicious

I've been surprisingly efficient lately, which of course begs the question: Am I Manic? My manics are terrifying. I talk nonstop at an incredible high speed. I only think of myself, I am incapable of empathy. Yes, kinda like a sociopath. I can't sit still, I feel none of my usual pain that keeps me... Continue Reading →

Medicine Rant

The amount of medicine I'm on, in my opinion, is ridiculous. I also know individuals who take much more, so I am lucky in many ways. But that doesn't help me when I empty the medicine box section into my hand. Seven pills in the morning and seven pills at night have been my norm.... Continue Reading →

Thoughts for Food

I have been doing very well as far as my anorexia goes. But I've also been gaining a lot of weight. I'm actually a little okay with it, but I have this growing fear that I'm going to get to a severely heavy weight. How do I lose this weight without going as far as... Continue Reading →

Alone in Good Company

How is it possible, to feel so alone surrounded by those you love? You can laugh and joke. You can even cackle at the crude humor being thrown around. It's your family, and you're finally free to talk with adults, without having to keep an eye on children and watch what you say. So why... Continue Reading →

The Importance of Sleep

Many of the medications I'm on have that handy-dandy side effect of drowsiness. I recently got prescribed a new medication for my nerve pain, and it makes me ridiculously sleepy. I lay down, and try to sleep but I can't. I can't fall asleep. Last night I took a melatonin, fell asleep, and still ended... Continue Reading →

Seesaw or Rollercoaster

One of the fun things about not knowing what your mood will be an hour into the future (I say with great sarcasm) is that you really don't know who you'll be. I can sit down on the couch with a coffee and tell myself that I'll do dishes when I'm done drinking. But maybe... Continue Reading →

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