Complete and total exhaustion have taken hold and won't let go.
This started off being about my moods lately, but I'm so scattered mentally that it really doesn't work as any one topic. So here is an insight as to how my mind works. Welp, I'm officially swinging for the sky. My mood has been all over the place for the past week. Mopey, angry, hyper,... Continue Reading →
Sitting in therapy the other day, I learned of a fun new thing that I may have been plagued with: post-operative depression. Because, why not? When you think of it, sedatives are a depressant. Anesthesia sedates you so well that you actually keep sleeping while your insides are taken out. (Sorry for that visual if... Continue Reading →
I did it! One surgery down and two more to go. I'm a bit shocked at this hysterectomy though. To avoid TMI, let's just say I wasn't expecting to have four good-sized incisions on my stomach. And they're glued shut, no stitches, which only makes me more nervous about messing them up. I'm also sore,... Continue Reading →
Well the question as to where my moods were heading has been answered. I am low. And I hate it. I have no energy, everything hurts, but the worst part is that I can't enjoy my last couple days before surgery. I'm having a surgery tomorrow and another one four weeks later. I'm going to... Continue Reading →
I've had surgery for a hysterectomy planned for this summer for a few months, and the big day is only three days away. I'm a nervous wreck. To add to the stress, my other surgeon wants to do a mastectomy at the end of June. So, in a month. For those of you who are... Continue Reading →
Last year is a very hard subject for me to talk about. I was at my lowest point at this time last year. Memorial day weekend of '19, and I tried to kill myself. After having been manic off and on for almost a year, I crashed. The worst low I've ever had. I had... Continue Reading →
As a mother of three patience is something that is crucial in my day-to-day life. We suspect my first daughter may have ADHD, our middle daughter has diagnosed Autism disorder, and the youngest is entering her second round of testing for Autism after scoring too high on the Autism screening. In other words, it's a... Continue Reading →